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Friday, December 12, 2003
assurance is what Brainy can give
how much i love you
is how much i can give you
although giving is not loving
but somehow loving is still giving
giving everything that you want
just because you are the only one
pink is a symbol
a symbol that brings out the inner you
a symbol that draws me closer to you
a symbol that makes me wanna be with you
if one day we are not together
don't feel bad
just say we never had
let things be the way they are
open youself up
and give Brainy a chance
Brainy will never let you down
till the day he falls down
Awwwwwieeee. *cries* I had tears in my eyes when I was reading that. That's like that sweetest thing I've ever read. And it's even sweeter, because I didn't expected it. It's just so sweet because I feel so loved.
But I feel so undeserving at the same time... I don't wish to love again, and naturally, I don't deserved to be loved too.
Confusions. Mixed emotions. It's all rushing through my head now. Am I happy or scared? I don't know, and I don't think I want to know too.
Brainy, I know you'll be looking at this, and I want to let you know that I really do appreciate every single thing you've done for me. I wish that there are more things I could do to repay you. Thank you so much Brainy. *hugs*
I've got so much issues in my mind. Endless questions that could never be answered. Contradicting thoughts that I do not wish to say it out.
What is love actually?
Love is scary. Love is risky.
I'm scared to love. Scared to risk.
Alone. Alone. Alone.
I just want to be a solitary girl living in my own world. A place where I would never be hurt again. In the universe of my own forsaken dreams.
9:00:00 AM
Yours Truly
Ingrid
25 years old
Kievan's Mommy
Still Pink Lovin'
Faded Memories
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deep inside me. a silent whisper in my mind.
sweet surrender to your love divine. peace enfolding.
in the stillness i empty my soul. and your healing presence flows.
as i breathe the air of heaven. drawing in your fragrance when i breathe.
i feel your fullness come alive inside of me. you're the breath that i breathe.
it's taking hold. like a second nature when i savour. savour you. as i breathe.