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Wednesday, November 29, 2006

Baby Kievan is: 1 year, 8 months & 2 weeks & 2 days old

Armin van Buuren @ Zouk


1st picture of the night. Zhongying, me and Grace.


In the toilet. I know Miss Yew Tee and Mr Toa Payoh, that face. THAT face. But I can't help having a fat face.


The girls again.

Grace waiting in anticipation for Armin. Zhongying hating alcohol.

Me going to Zouk again later.

So later guys.





Friday, November 24, 2006

Baby Kievan is: 1 year, 8 months & 1 week & 4 days old

I'm back and alive. So don't complain that it's always the same old post when you come into my blog ok girls. It's a long, long story. My computer ate up my pictures (SO many of them) a few days ago, so I couldn't update until now. So there're not alot of pictures for now because I'm too tired to edit and resize all of them. What's more, some of them turns out really weird after resizing. It gets all pixelated and the features sort of goes out of shape. Honestly.

It was Weiren aka The Bird's birthday celebration last Saturday. Went for dinner then proceeded to Kbox for some singing. Guests are a bunch of people who loves to sing and can sing really well. I need to brush up on my duets though... I wish you guys can hear me sing. You'll get so much amusement out of it.

Anyway, I forgot my wallet and cigerettes that night. Can anyone enlighten me on how I can actually manage to forget my wallet? And the best thing is, I only realised it upon reaching Bugis. Duh. Thank goodness Zhongying was catching a movie with Alvin at Cineleisure too, so I met up with her and borrowed some cash. She's the buoy and I'm the drowning idiot. End of story.

Pictures galore now.


The birthday boy pretending to make a wish! Happy birthday Weiren!


Me and the birthday boy. This picture looks so awkward. The birthday boy looks like I have a gun pointing at him behind his back.


Me and Jay, The Singer.


排排坐, 吃果果. Meiyi, me and The Bird.


Regine and I. She did a french manicure that day, was supposed to do it with her. But I forgot my darn wallet.. Sigh..


Meiyi and me. Her friend edited this picture for her. And added so much blink to my earrings. I've never felt so blinky!


Junhao, Regine and I on our way home. The cabbie gave me his mobile number and asked me to call him up when I'm free. My first encounter of this kind, very interesting and freakish.

Interval...


The buoy and the drownee. Pardon that handshake that caused the blurry picture, I am not good at taking pictures anymore.


Zhongying and me. Taken while they're queuing to get tickets.


Lovely background. Motive was to take a picture with Andy Lau in it. But as you can see, both of us covered that gorgeous creature. Leaving an unknown pilot beside me.

Good night world.

PS: Another 2 pictures of myself that I almost forgot to post.


Life in Mono.


Sweet dreams universe.





Friday, November 10, 2006

Baby Kievan is: 1 year, 7 months & 4 weeks old

Delta Goodrem - Not Me Not I

you mixed me up for someone who'd fall apart without you
yeah you broke my heart for the first time but i'll get over that too
it's hard to find the reasons
who can see the rhyme
i guess that we were seasons out of time
i guess you didn't know me

if you think love is blind
that i wouldn't see the flaws between the lines
surprised that i caught you out on every single time that you lied
did you think that everytime i see you i would cry
no not me not i
not i
no not me not i

the story goes on without you and there's got to be another ending
but yeah you broke my heart it won't be the last time but i'll get over them too
as a new door opens we close the ones behind
and if you search your soul i know you'll find
you never really knew me

all you said to me
all you promised me
all the mystery never did believe
no i never cry
no i never not me not i


My frozen tears never fall out of my eyes. They just embrace my heart in a cold painful frost.

Which explains why I am missing you everyday, a gnawing and bottomless ache that never goes away.

So I shut my eyes and ponder. Pondered and realised that love can be everything, and yet nothing at all.





Friday, November 03, 2006

Baby Kievan is: 1 year, 7 months, 3 weeks old

1st issue of the day:

Guilt and remorse. I accidentally burnt baby with my cigarette yesterday. I was smoking and looking at mobile phones with Joey, when baby suddenly ran to me from behind us. My cigarette burnt him somewhere below his neck and a big piece of skin came off, leaving that area red and sore. I felt so bad, I thought I was gonna die on the spot. If I wasn't smoking in the first place, he wouldn't be burnt at all. Yes, I was standing at quite a distance away from him and my maid was looking after him. So I was engrossed with looking at LG's Chocolate. But, it was my cigarette which burnt baby in the end. She explained afterwards that he ran off too quickly towards me, and she couldn't catch him on time. So almost everyone now, including myself, thinks that i'm the most terrible mother on Earth who smokes and burn my son in process. But I guess I deserve to be blamed and reprimanded for that. Sigh.

I totally did not expect baby to come after me. Before I lit up my cigarette, I even took a glance at him and he was playing around the fountain. I've got no slightest idea that he would ran to me at all. I definitely will not hurt him, if I know he's somewhere around me with no one looking after. My heart was aching so badly when I see him crying in pain. I teared and wished that I could take the pain for him, but it wasn't possible, so I could only hold him while he cried and cried. It feels so terrible to just being able to hold him close and not do anything to make him feel better. Honestly, there isn't anything I wouldn't do at that moment if I can just take away his pain. And no, it's not an exaggeration. I feel more than empathy, it's like, I feel whatever that he's feeling. I smile in bliss when I see him laughing in happiness. I hurt when I see him crying in pain. Burning him was like burning myself. My heart is his, my blood is too. I never wanted to hurt him in any ways at all.

I'm so sorry, baby. Mommy is really so sorry, so very extremely sorry.

2nd issue of the day:

My new spectacles. After living 9 years of my life in a misty fog, my new spectacles when worn, actually brings me to another world, where everything is so crystal clear. Vivid images that glare my eyes and make me feel faint and feel like a stranger. It's cool, but weird at the same time. Look out for this nerd. Coming to the virtual world. Soon.

3rd issue of the day:

Halloween. Nothing exceptional about it, was fun but just like any other usual party nights. Was working at MOS for awhile, so decided to just stay there instead of hopping down to Zouk. But apparently, Zouk was freaking happening, so we missed out all the good and real fun. Zhongying came down to look for me with Alvin, but they both left awhile later. So I joined Meiyi and Alan instead. Fortunately, no one got drunk, and I actually met some very nice and friendly people.

Shall not type anymore, am very tired. Here are pictures to bright up the otherwise lengthy and boring entry.


Zhongying in her beautiful pale green fairy costume.


Me and Rykiel in our MOS work costume. I was supposed to have a feather on my head, but they left it out for some reasons. Thank goodness for me!


Me and Rykiel again.


Rykiel and me, in "candlelight" mode. I'm serious about the candlelight thingy, it's an effect from her camera.


Rykiel and me yet again. Obviously, we had nothing better to do. Were waiting for work to start.


The Las Vegas Showgirls. Almost exact words by Clarence, Mr Don't-Wanna-MJ-With-Us Zing.


A jug of Vodka Cranberry. How is it that the 2 other girls can look totally sexy and appealing while drinking, while I look like I'm ready to gulp down the whole thing? People might actually think that I haven't had anything to drink in a year. Look at that gluttony expression, it's worth a million dollars.


Regine the Roman Goddess. Meiyi the Mermaid (in my opinion). And Ingrid the Oh So Common Devil.


Mermaid and Hell's Angel.

PS: Oh yeah, the spiders. Darn spiders. I forgot about the spiders!




Yours Truly
Ingrid
25 years old
Kievan's Mommy
Still Pink Lovin'

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deep inside me. a silent whisper in my mind.
sweet surrender to your love divine. peace enfolding.
in the stillness i empty my soul. and your healing presence flows.
as i breathe the air of heaven. drawing in your fragrance when i breathe.
i feel your fullness come alive inside of me. you're the breath that i breathe.
it's taking hold. like a second nature when i savour. savour you. as i breathe.