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Thursday, January 01, 2004

First day of 2004. A new year awaits. Does a new life awaits me too?

I remembered a few days back, I was still wondering, "Will 2004 be a good year, or a bad one?"

I didn't have to wonder long though.

I remembered Joycelyn telling me her boyfriend dreamt that I committed suicide. Joey then told me, "Normally when someone dreams that another person died, that person is just going to have a new life."

I laughed and agreed that I'm on my way to a new life.

I remembered at Zouk when I sent you a SMS telling you that I still love you, and you replied, "I hope it's true, because I love you too."

Tears of real happiness threatened to flow.

I remembered lying on your bed trying to fall asleep, but all I could manage was toss and turn around. Because my heart squeezed into a throbbing bruise when I thought of her sleeping on the same bed as you.

I was confused, I didn't knew what to do.

I remembered when you reached over and kissed me on my lips. As soft as loving as the first time we kissed. I felt the world stood still for 2 seconds. My mind dissolved into a blank. I felt nothing but our overwhelming love.

I knew then, I'll be your slave of love again.

I remembered how easy it is for me to forget and give up everything and anything just for you. Even myself, my sanity or even my life.

It's all so crystal clear now.

You're my life once again.

And I love you.

Can't stop loving you.

12:00:00 AM

Yours Truly
Ingrid
25 years old
Kievan's Mommy
Still Pink Lovin'

deep inside me. a silent whisper in my mind.

sweet surrender to your love divine. peace enfolding.

in the stillness i empty my soul. and your healing presence flows.

as i breathe the air of heaven. drawing in your fragrance when i breathe.

i feel your fullness come alive inside of me. you're the breath that i breathe.

it's taking hold. like a second nature when i savour. savour you. as i breathe.