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Thursday, June 03, 2004

Intoxicated By:

Gabrielle - Out Of Reach
Feeling: Blah

I should be sleeping like a log now. I woke up at 1pm yesterday, and my body clock is in such a way that I will feel sleepy after 12 hours. But not today. Weird.

I'm more to being bored than tired, maybe I should pop into bed with a book. At least that would definitely be much more interesting than me sitting here clicking around aimlessly. Bah.

And cramps, damn, I feel like I have a whole boxing squard in my abdomen. You know, I love being a female. I love everything about it. Like dressing up, playing with dolls, dolling up, manicures and pedicures, pink, all those sweet, girly stuff... I love them all. But one thing I totally detest about being a female are all these monthly cramps and PMS.

Cramps are still okay (literally, that's it). I mean there's something called painkillers. Pop 2 painkillers with one glass of warm water and roll into bed, after all these years of experience, this is the best cure I could come up with.

But PMS? Nooo.

Once it hits you, don't even try to run away from it. It's like a fly trying to get away from a spiderweb. Okay, that's not the most elegant metaphor, but you know what I mean. I swear that I am the most onery person to ever grace the Earth when i'm PMS-ing.

It's not just those bouts of anger, or getting incensed at the slightest matter. I could still handle that.

It's my emotions. I always feel that they're riding a rocky rollercoaster without any seatbelts on. I cried over a cruel joke, got infuriated over trivia matters, laughed too hard over a simple pun.

I nearly drove my baby crazy. Well, that was last Saturday. I'm just too bored now that I'm actually typing all these now. In fact, this blog of mine, is unknowingly turning into a real diary of mine. When I first started it last year, I was still feeling a little standoffish about all these stuff. I didn't dared to post too personal stuff about myself and so on. But I don't give so much of a damn anymore. True that strangers might stumble here sometimes, but here, in the world of the Internet, most people don't know each other. Some people might know you as a close friend and some might be on the other side of the world who don't know you at all. So... damn, I believe I've proved what I'm trying to imply. Hehe.

I better stop babbling. I'm seemed to be going on and on non-stop. I'm supposed to wake up early tomorrow. Meeting up with Qinglin and Amy to go shopping and dinner at Orchard tomorrow afternoon. It's been so long since I last visited Gripz, I bet they have loads of wonderful new shoes. Oh god, I'm so addicted to shoes. If I could live a life where I could shop like nobody's business. I'm going to have a room filled up with shoes. And of course bags. To think of it, everything actually.

I should backtrack a little. Baby and I wanted to catch a movie, Harry Potter to be exact. It's the sneaks today, and all the tickets were sold out. How disappointing for us. So we decided to have dinner at Cartel, and it was such a coincidence! We saw Joycelyn and Bygone there. And so Joycelyn asked the management to switch them to a bigger table, and so my baby and I could join in, without queueing up. Which was a very good thing as the queue looked incredibly long to me.

Well, I guess I should better end now. This post is 10 times longer than what I usually post. Which means 10 times more boring. I started this off feeling bored, and I ended up feeling chatty. Not quite what I've expected.

Don't worry, I'm signing off now. Ciao.

PS: We went to Metro to look at some baby crib's for Joycelyn's coming joy. And lo and behold, guess what I saw? Carebears! Aww, I absolutely adore them, ever since I was young. I used to have loads of them, but as I grew older, they mysteriously disappeared. And looking at those carebears brought back all those sweet childhood memories. So my new wishlist shall be the whole collection of Carebears. No one can stop me from this. I am going to buy them, all of them. And I mean it.

Now, just look at them before you say anything. Aren't they the cutest?

4:07:00 AM

Yours Truly
Ingrid
25 years old
Kievan's Mommy
Still Pink Lovin'

deep inside me. a silent whisper in my mind.

sweet surrender to your love divine. peace enfolding.

in the stillness i empty my soul. and your healing presence flows.

as i breathe the air of heaven. drawing in your fragrance when i breathe.

i feel your fullness come alive inside of me. you're the breath that i breathe.

it's taking hold. like a second nature when i savour. savour you. as i breathe.